Yes two blogs in one day! They aren't related so they get separate posts. I now give you a new segment on this little corner I have carved out on the internet: RETAIL RANTS. I have been in the mall world for nearly 12 years and whew lawd has it been a time. I have more stories about humans and their disgusting ways than you will ever fathom and all true, even if they sound far-fetched...trust me I wish some were! So for the introduction to this ongoing series I will prepare you and my brethren in sales for the holiday season.
It is almost Halloween and I could not be more excited. However in the retail world this means that the ramp-up to the holiday spending season has begun. Pumpkins share space on shelves with reindeer and pilgrims. Everything is overwhelming, everything is super colorful (but like only in various shades of red, gold, silver, black & green), everything is somehow covered in glitter, it's a lot. I feel bad for Thanksgiving honestly, it's a big friends & family holiday on it's own but it's completely overshadowed by both Halloween and Christmas in the stores. Christmas is already in full force and it is only October 19th....settle down Santa. Like when you think about it Easter has it the best: After Easter has passed the next major decorating holiday is the Fourth of July, which is two to three months away, you don't get gifts and your main concern is where you are going to light off all your fireworks. The long lull of summer gives way afterwards and everyone just chills out until October 1st when, in seasonally appropriate climates, Autumn has arrived and literally I'm pretty sure everyone loses their damn minds. I already know that I will actually be off on Thanksgiving because A) I work for a nice company and B) This is how flipping early we need to start preparing for Black Friday. Now, like yesterday, I'm 85% sure our schedule is mocked up somewhere in the office because this is how important retail has made shopping and the holidays. I love the holidays, don't get me wrong, I really love how cozy the nights are around the bonfire with my friends and how everyone's families get together and come to town, it's wonderful. Working during this time is a shenanigan show of complete unpredictability. The people I have met/helped over the years have run the gamut from sweet as pie to the actual devil spawn. You never know exactly what you will get, I had my very first customer one Black Friday afternoon yell at me for the pricing that was out of my control. She was SO mad about the fact that we had advertised certain pricing for the early birds and then didn't carry that over to the people strolling in at 3pm....Ma'am I didn't choose this. I've also had an amazing customer that I helped find all their Office Christmas party gifts (he was the CEO) in one swoop.
My main rant for today is a focus of pure human decency. I understand that the holiday season is stressful, I understand that so many people are pressed for time, I understand that money is tight in most cases. I GET IT, I'M WITH YOU. So in turn....very simply....Please don't treat sales people like shit. Honestly. We all have families and friends that we want to be with, that we are also shopping for when we are able and when we are on the clock we are there to help you 100%. I have zero control over any of my companies signs/promotions/pricing/item allotments. I do not make any decisions about what they put out into the world. I just work there. I can help you in only the perimeters of which are set forth by a team of people who work very far from where you and I stand. Please try and remember this when you cop an attitude with a cashier because the price that rang up was the price on the item and not whatever you assumed it might be. Ask us a million questions, that is what I am there for! I can provide so much information, I can get you any size, I can offer opinions on what to wear to the event and if this matches these shoes you have. I love doing that! I will personal shop for you all day. At the end of the day we are all humans just trying to get through this weird and wild world, the easiest thing to do is Just Be Kind.
The rants will continue through this crazy 2K16 holiday jam we are about to dive into...so stay tuned for all the storytimes!
Keep on, Keepin' on,
M.
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Thursday, October 20, 2016
Friday, July 8, 2016
Summer Blues
July 4th came and went. It was a great time with lots of friendships and smiles. Now we are back to regular neighbor hangs and nothing big really happening until the fall. I will definitely be updating more during September/October as we will be throwing 2 parties. The first is a baby fiesta for my dear sweet neighbors and their upcoming baby girl, and the second is a combined effort block party for Halloween! I am so excited for both and looking forward to making all kinds of decorations and foods :)
Now we come to the hottest time during the summer in Florida. My car always registers in the 100's when I get into it after work from sitting on the black tar parking lot all day. If you're wearing shorts, you've got the thigh/butt burns from a leather seat permanently until about late October.
This is also the time for a bit of a summer blues since there isn't anything going on, it's pretty similar to the winter blues in January after all the holiday season is over. It's the best time I think for a bit of an exercise kick. Get those endorphin's flowing! I believe we are getting a work group together to have a check in so that we'll actually work out, but I do know that I'll pick up on my running this week, I need to get active for my own self health.
Wish me luck, y'all!
Keep on, keepin' on!
M.
Now we come to the hottest time during the summer in Florida. My car always registers in the 100's when I get into it after work from sitting on the black tar parking lot all day. If you're wearing shorts, you've got the thigh/butt burns from a leather seat permanently until about late October.
This is also the time for a bit of a summer blues since there isn't anything going on, it's pretty similar to the winter blues in January after all the holiday season is over. It's the best time I think for a bit of an exercise kick. Get those endorphin's flowing! I believe we are getting a work group together to have a check in so that we'll actually work out, but I do know that I'll pick up on my running this week, I need to get active for my own self health.
Wish me luck, y'all!
Keep on, keepin' on!
M.
Thursday, June 16, 2016
What Is Happening
This blog isn't a place normally for politics or current events but I can't sit here and stay silent. This world has gone mad. We are ripping each other down daily for opinions that before social media we would have sat and listened to with an open mind. It's a lot easier to be an asshole behind a computer screen than face to face.
Now nowhere is safe. School, church, theme parks, a damn nightclub! Every time I leave my house I feel like I need to be on extra high alert. Scoping out everyone and making sure I have an exit plan. That's insane and that's the world we have built for ourselves. A girl was killed signing autographs for fans. Numerous human beings were massacred while dancing and drinking and loving life. Another girl was murdered because she broke up with her boyfriend! No one is safe and no one is taking the blame. Pointing fingers in a circle until we implode onto ourselves.
So now the conversation about gun control comes back up. No, we shouldn't completely do away with guns. Yes, there needs to be a review of the laws. In other countries there are laws requiring classes every year, there are laws requiring a longer wait/processing time. There are so many factors of legislation to look into, none of which abolish guns completely. If you do that then it becomes a very active black market situation and then you are worse than when you began.
We need less hate in this world. More TOLERANCE. More LOVE. More RESPECT for your fellow human beings. We are all on this planet for such a short time. We need to stop all this negative bullshit and violence and get back as one. Peace is missing, and has been for a very long time.
Keep on, Keepin' on,
M.
Now nowhere is safe. School, church, theme parks, a damn nightclub! Every time I leave my house I feel like I need to be on extra high alert. Scoping out everyone and making sure I have an exit plan. That's insane and that's the world we have built for ourselves. A girl was killed signing autographs for fans. Numerous human beings were massacred while dancing and drinking and loving life. Another girl was murdered because she broke up with her boyfriend! No one is safe and no one is taking the blame. Pointing fingers in a circle until we implode onto ourselves.
So now the conversation about gun control comes back up. No, we shouldn't completely do away with guns. Yes, there needs to be a review of the laws. In other countries there are laws requiring classes every year, there are laws requiring a longer wait/processing time. There are so many factors of legislation to look into, none of which abolish guns completely. If you do that then it becomes a very active black market situation and then you are worse than when you began.
We need less hate in this world. More TOLERANCE. More LOVE. More RESPECT for your fellow human beings. We are all on this planet for such a short time. We need to stop all this negative bullshit and violence and get back as one. Peace is missing, and has been for a very long time.
Keep on, Keepin' on,
M.
Wednesday, June 8, 2016
Stream Of Consciousness
I'm sitting here typing and listening to podcasts and thinking about my future life. Age is utterly just a number and in the generation that I am in, we have always been told to be anything. Do anything. Barbie held every job from a baker to a scientist to a teacher to an Olympic gymnast AND ice skater and up to president and then she was even an astronaut. When I look at all the paths friends of mine have taken I wonder is that what you wanted to do? Did you take the job to be successful and secure your adulthood? Did you take the job that was your passion whether or not it would offer a good path? Why did you change your path? I wonder if because we were given SO many options if that's not exactly the reasons that so many 20-30 somethings are not as driven. We have a laissez-faire attitude about life OR we are over confidently passionate about politics or money or issues. We post inspirational quotes and still drink ourselves stupid because our lives aren't the glossy 8X10 we post on Facebook. We think that because some of our heroes from our childhoods didn't start their careers til late 30s or 40s or even 50s that we still have time. I am guilty of this. I am in the same boat thinking that I'll do it tomorrow. And then next week seems better. And then I end up staying on the same path, same dreams put on the back burner when honestly if I just went and did what I want to do, plus still keep my responsibilities and work hard that I'd be living my dream. I feel that maybe in the back of my head that I will go for something and that it will fail and that's why I stay safe in my bubble. Then I put out a little feeler and I get glowing positive response and I feel so happy and so proud and I think to myself, Meghan honestly just get yourself on this path and DO IT. Take your cue from Nike and JUST DO IT. Do the small things, wake up and write in this blog. Wake up and go for a run. Come home from work and actually cook dinner and then take 15 minutes for yourself and learn a language. Write in a notebook and start your novel, start your book series. Decorate your office so you WANT to be in there. Listen to your man, listen to your friends, listen to strangers that have stumbled upon this very blog and liked it. Stop worrying so much about the negative and letting it hold you back.
If you take anything from this, know that this space is something that I put into the world and I definitely pour my heart into and show glimpses of my flaws along with fun things like smoothies and antler head-dresses.
Today I wrote and listened to the rain. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll have a new journal and I'll put some new stories into the universe.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
PS Thanks friends <3 :)
If you take anything from this, know that this space is something that I put into the world and I definitely pour my heart into and show glimpses of my flaws along with fun things like smoothies and antler head-dresses.
Today I wrote and listened to the rain. Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll have a new journal and I'll put some new stories into the universe.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
PS Thanks friends <3 :)
Wednesday, March 16, 2016
March Madness
I'm not sure how to even state this properly or begin to talk about the insane things happening in our life. But I will say that at the root of it all, we have a wonderful friend family. Everyone who has been there, trust me it has meant more than you know.
I still live in shut down mode and though we had an awesome time with our friends who just visited, my head wasn't 100% in it. At the back of my mind there is always a "what's going to happen next??" "what will slap us in the face this time??" I can't function properly anymore. I have to drink, I have to plant, I have to do half assed crafts and redecorate my space when I should be writing or working or cleaning. I don't feel like a good adult/friend/partner. I feel like a hermit and a sad girl. And it's all stemming from someone who doesn't even live in this damn state. Who has ruined vacations and weekends and parties and doesn't even realize the pain they've caused. Nothing is fair anymore and I'm sick of it.
I sit in my house an squander away the hours of my life instead of being outside and seeing the world and the people that I love. I'm always in here waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hate it, and I'm sorry if you think I've just been being a bad friend, I haven't done it on purpose. I have to self preserve myself alone in here so that eventually when this is all over, I come out head held high and ready to be 100% happy.
Hope that's fucking soon though.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
I still live in shut down mode and though we had an awesome time with our friends who just visited, my head wasn't 100% in it. At the back of my mind there is always a "what's going to happen next??" "what will slap us in the face this time??" I can't function properly anymore. I have to drink, I have to plant, I have to do half assed crafts and redecorate my space when I should be writing or working or cleaning. I don't feel like a good adult/friend/partner. I feel like a hermit and a sad girl. And it's all stemming from someone who doesn't even live in this damn state. Who has ruined vacations and weekends and parties and doesn't even realize the pain they've caused. Nothing is fair anymore and I'm sick of it.
I sit in my house an squander away the hours of my life instead of being outside and seeing the world and the people that I love. I'm always in here waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hate it, and I'm sorry if you think I've just been being a bad friend, I haven't done it on purpose. I have to self preserve myself alone in here so that eventually when this is all over, I come out head held high and ready to be 100% happy.
Hope that's fucking soon though.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Thursday, February 11, 2016
When Did It Become February?
So my life has been a bit topsy-turvy as of late. February came in with a bang and a slap and a hell of an attitude. Things are happening that are 1000% out of my control and out of my man's control and only now a week and a half later we have reigned in this crazy. I won't delve into details because for now it's a grey area and I might make a more in depth article/blog when it's properly settled down. Today I just want to say....
To my friends/family:
I'm very thankful for all of you and I appreciate all the kindness and support. I'm sorry that I shut down and I revert back into my little cave of aloneness and I shut everyone out. It happens, it's a defensive trait. I'm reaching out my feelers though and I would like some company very soon :)
To _____:
I miss you and I love you. I'm sad that you are so far away. I'm sad that you can't visit. I'm sad for this whole situation. It's terrible for all parties and I feel that there is some much better solutions than the ones that we are faced with now. I hope you are happy, I guess. I hope you are doing well in school, you are smart as a whip and don't let anyone bring you down. You are a shining little firecracker, don't let anyone burn you out. I hope this finds you somewhere out there, know that you are loved and missed by more than me and whenever you want to come back, we're here with open arms.
That's all for now.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
To my friends/family:
I'm very thankful for all of you and I appreciate all the kindness and support. I'm sorry that I shut down and I revert back into my little cave of aloneness and I shut everyone out. It happens, it's a defensive trait. I'm reaching out my feelers though and I would like some company very soon :)
To _____:
I miss you and I love you. I'm sad that you are so far away. I'm sad that you can't visit. I'm sad for this whole situation. It's terrible for all parties and I feel that there is some much better solutions than the ones that we are faced with now. I hope you are happy, I guess. I hope you are doing well in school, you are smart as a whip and don't let anyone bring you down. You are a shining little firecracker, don't let anyone burn you out. I hope this finds you somewhere out there, know that you are loved and missed by more than me and whenever you want to come back, we're here with open arms.
That's all for now.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Ah Well.....
It's 9am and I have only just gotten up. Last night to be fair I worked until 11pm and came home still pretty awake. Or maybe all my early mornings caught up, is that a real thing? I've heard yes and no, catching up on sleep doesn't actually do anything....But it feels so nice to stay in bed!!!
Today I work til 5 and I am pretty sure the rest of this week is off in the early evening as well, so more chance to work back up the routine. It's alot harder than I thought, I've been a late bird for so long!
I will get there. I can do it!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Today I work til 5 and I am pretty sure the rest of this week is off in the early evening as well, so more chance to work back up the routine. It's alot harder than I thought, I've been a late bird for so long!
I will get there. I can do it!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday, November 10, 2015
Can You Call It Sleeping In?
Last night I went to bed at the same time to keep on this early bird schedule. This morning I stayed in bed til 645. Still early for me! But not consistant, dang. I suppose getting up the same time all the time comes with repetition and I definitely am not used to it.
On top of that my brain knows I won't go in to work until 2PM so it's for sure in for a longer sleep.
At least my man and I are in this together and hopefully I can reset my rhythm with this routine.
Good morning early birds!!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
On top of that my brain knows I won't go in to work until 2PM so it's for sure in for a longer sleep.
At least my man and I are in this together and hopefully I can reset my rhythm with this routine.
Good morning early birds!!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Sunday, November 8, 2015
Life Changes!
Better late than never for an overhaul of sorts. October was a VERY trying month which trickled into November. Now that the bad times are over and the upswing has begun, we have decided to clense out the clutter/fog/mess of our lives and get ourselves healthy and happy and ready to take on the next years with a new found vigor. To start on our journey we have set our alarms to become early birds. What a crazy idea we have. We are super night owls and I know that being a morning person will take some getting used to but I really look forward to not rushing in the morning and getting the most from my day.
This little blog will be getting some action with my early rising! I'll have coffee and writing time which will definitely get my mind going for the day ahead.
Maybe now I'll be able to go get groceries leisurely if I need before work. Maybe I can start my exercise routine. Maybe I can pack my lunches!
I CAN.
I am really quite excited to start getting up with the sun, giving it a little hello to the day and become more productive and living to the fullest.
See you at sunrise!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
This little blog will be getting some action with my early rising! I'll have coffee and writing time which will definitely get my mind going for the day ahead.
I CAN.
I am really quite excited to start getting up with the sun, giving it a little hello to the day and become more productive and living to the fullest.
See you at sunrise!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Night Blogs
I feel that when I don't keep up with this blog, I'm doing a disservice to my soul. Like I want to be a writer. I want to put out the next great American novel. I have no clue what it will be about and I'm pretty sure I won't know until that idea hits me a 3AM on an idle Tuesday.
I will be 30 in less than 6 months and right now, today, as I type this, that is the 2nd most terrifying thought in my brain. The 1st one is for another night.
How do you know when it all starts falling into place? Do you ever know? Or do you just tell yourself that lie of complacency that you've been taught. This is halfway where I thought I'd be 5 years ago. I'd like to be fullway where I thought I'd be a year ago, but I'm just better sometimes at coasting through than actually making hard, uncomfortable choices and leaping off that cliff.
Here's to August being the month I really write full force and change my life!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
I will be 30 in less than 6 months and right now, today, as I type this, that is the 2nd most terrifying thought in my brain. The 1st one is for another night.
How do you know when it all starts falling into place? Do you ever know? Or do you just tell yourself that lie of complacency that you've been taught. This is halfway where I thought I'd be 5 years ago. I'd like to be fullway where I thought I'd be a year ago, but I'm just better sometimes at coasting through than actually making hard, uncomfortable choices and leaping off that cliff.
Here's to August being the month I really write full force and change my life!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Sunday, February 8, 2015
Sunday Morning
Hello and welcome to February everyone :)
Update from the last blog: My NOLA report will be live on www.lifebetweenweekends.com Feb 9th! YAY! I am very excited and very grateful and very happy.
In other news, I've kicked around the idea for a few years to start a little business and see if anything happens. So thus I give you Renate Rose Jewelry! I have a shop coming soon to Etsy and of course will keep this blog up to date on all details and pages to see and whatnot.
Ok, shameless self promos over.
This has been a strange and frustrating 2015 so far. Yes New Orleans was amazing. Yes I am excited for new ventures and randomly wonderful opportunities. But despite all that it has already been a hell of a struggle in the back burner personal side of things. Outside everything seems pretty smooth and together but inside certain things are just ripping apart my good nature. I've always been good at squashing things and no letting the bad show, which at some points have made me feel like I have robot parts. Can't let those rust so you can't cry over every little thing.
When you're little you are told that you have the whole world in front of you and you can do anything. When you grow up that stops and suddenly you're painted into a corner and given all these roadblocks that prevent you from just going for it. I think it's time that those walls get steamrolled right down. Live your life at any age still believing that you can do anything. Don't them anyone make it hard. Don't let yourself make it hard. I've spent too long getting painted and now I've come to the conclusion that maybe it was always me holding the brush.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Update from the last blog: My NOLA report will be live on www.lifebetweenweekends.com Feb 9th! YAY! I am very excited and very grateful and very happy.
In other news, I've kicked around the idea for a few years to start a little business and see if anything happens. So thus I give you Renate Rose Jewelry! I have a shop coming soon to Etsy and of course will keep this blog up to date on all details and pages to see and whatnot.
Ok, shameless self promos over.
This has been a strange and frustrating 2015 so far. Yes New Orleans was amazing. Yes I am excited for new ventures and randomly wonderful opportunities. But despite all that it has already been a hell of a struggle in the back burner personal side of things. Outside everything seems pretty smooth and together but inside certain things are just ripping apart my good nature. I've always been good at squashing things and no letting the bad show, which at some points have made me feel like I have robot parts. Can't let those rust so you can't cry over every little thing.
When you're little you are told that you have the whole world in front of you and you can do anything. When you grow up that stops and suddenly you're painted into a corner and given all these roadblocks that prevent you from just going for it. I think it's time that those walls get steamrolled right down. Live your life at any age still believing that you can do anything. Don't them anyone make it hard. Don't let yourself make it hard. I've spent too long getting painted and now I've come to the conclusion that maybe it was always me holding the brush.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
GOALS
Good bye to 2014 HELLO 2015!!
New Year's resolutions are always in full swing for everyone round this time of year, and I am no different. I think this year, this is the year I accomplish things! But seriously though, 2015 I want to accomplish ALL the things.
Presented to you, the internet and so that I have a record of my musings, GOALS:
1. Freaking blog here EVERYDAY. Really make the commitment.
2. Get healthy. I know, I know so cliche, but what's so bad about putting the idea in to get healthy?! NOTHING.
3. Save my money. I'm the worst at saving and penny pinching and I need to grown up manage my finances.
4. Go on more trips! Get that work/life balance, well, balanced! And plus saving money will help fund the fantastic adventures my man and I could take.
5. Read more. Unplug(hahaha as I write this on a laptop) from the internet. Take more time doing real life things with real live people.
That's what I've got for now, pretty alright list. Here's to sticking to it!!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
New Year's resolutions are always in full swing for everyone round this time of year, and I am no different. I think this year, this is the year I accomplish things! But seriously though, 2015 I want to accomplish ALL the things.
Presented to you, the internet and so that I have a record of my musings, GOALS:
1. Freaking blog here EVERYDAY. Really make the commitment.
2. Get healthy. I know, I know so cliche, but what's so bad about putting the idea in to get healthy?! NOTHING.
3. Save my money. I'm the worst at saving and penny pinching and I need to grown up manage my finances.
4. Go on more trips! Get that work/life balance, well, balanced! And plus saving money will help fund the fantastic adventures my man and I could take.
5. Read more. Unplug(hahaha as I write this on a laptop) from the internet. Take more time doing real life things with real live people.
That's what I've got for now, pretty alright list. Here's to sticking to it!!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Friday, December 5, 2014
December Ramble
People always tell me to write what I know and how I feel...and I'm not sure that my jagged thoughts would make a fine blog. I want to write as my livelihood and that is my goal in 2015. I think this whole blog has been about goals and wishes and promises. UGH. I want to do like 8 million things and I get a strike of fear and then I'm like NOPE.
It sucks.
I could write about my days in retail. I could write about my skunk. I could write about me. What does anyone want to hear about???
Who knows. Maybe I'll figure it out in the next month
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
It sucks.
I could write about my days in retail. I could write about my skunk. I could write about me. What does anyone want to hear about???
Who knows. Maybe I'll figure it out in the next month
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
I'm the worst
Yea IDK y'all. I have the attention span of a gnat some days and on top of that this week has been crazypants.
I work and I have my party coming on Saturday. Last Saturday's hike was so much fun and wouldn't you know, didn't take a damn picture! TOO much fun I suppose.
Trust me though, there will be a couple albums dedicated to the party.
In other news, I feel that my writer's block is an extension of all this stress and whatnot. I want to write a short story and start a novel but my mind is bent on all the party things I still have left to do! So for now you fair readers get a diary. I hope it's exciting :)
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
I work and I have my party coming on Saturday. Last Saturday's hike was so much fun and wouldn't you know, didn't take a damn picture! TOO much fun I suppose.
Trust me though, there will be a couple albums dedicated to the party.
In other news, I feel that my writer's block is an extension of all this stress and whatnot. I want to write a short story and start a novel but my mind is bent on all the party things I still have left to do! So for now you fair readers get a diary. I hope it's exciting :)
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Friday, September 12, 2014
Stream of Bleh.
Hello! It is September and I haven't been around, and I am not committing to this properly. I need to really write more. I don't know how I can be on the internet all of the time and not blog. This is what I want to do mostly and I just fight with my with my brain like "No, no...you can't do this. You aren't good. Who's gonna read it?" And I'm not posting to fish for things, I've got swell support in my life on this writing business. This blog is seriously just a stream of consciousness. I see other people in the world with book deals and I just say, man why not me?!
I'll tell you, cause I'm not doing it. I'm just not out there writing once a day or putting any of my thoughts to paper. I'm listening to my doubts! I hate my doubts. They are rude and stifling. Doubts get in your head and drown your dreams. If you have this same problem, and you've overcome it or are wanting to overcome it:
A) Help a sister out!
B) We can pull each other up from the depths and really slough off those fears and doubts and blockades we've got running inside our mind.
Because that's really what it all feels like. There's this one part of me that is like yea! I can do this! And unfortunately that part is a little small and easily bullied by this other part that stands up, shoos it away and says, no no small one. Stop the nonsense, you can't do things like that...go back to what you know and shush.
It's sad. I started this blog for me as an online journal and in hopes of combating the struggle inside myself. I would say that this particular entry is the realest on the books and maybe that start and push that the small one needs to rise up and shout from the roof tops.
I hope so!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
I'll tell you, cause I'm not doing it. I'm just not out there writing once a day or putting any of my thoughts to paper. I'm listening to my doubts! I hate my doubts. They are rude and stifling. Doubts get in your head and drown your dreams. If you have this same problem, and you've overcome it or are wanting to overcome it:
A) Help a sister out!
B) We can pull each other up from the depths and really slough off those fears and doubts and blockades we've got running inside our mind.
Because that's really what it all feels like. There's this one part of me that is like yea! I can do this! And unfortunately that part is a little small and easily bullied by this other part that stands up, shoos it away and says, no no small one. Stop the nonsense, you can't do things like that...go back to what you know and shush.
It's sad. I started this blog for me as an online journal and in hopes of combating the struggle inside myself. I would say that this particular entry is the realest on the books and maybe that start and push that the small one needs to rise up and shout from the roof tops.
I hope so!
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Friday, January 24, 2014
Oh Hey Blog! Been A Bit....
Ok I made resolutions and clearly could care less about them. I am not fully sure on what part of my brain told the other part to kick rocks, but that is mostly my assumption of what happened. Right, so I wanted to get fit (of course), and I have really been eating healthier, but I have yet to properly exercise or ride my Christmas bike. Terrible! Also, making a plan to wake up early......ummmm, no, sorry. I don't know what it making me so awful tired all the time but I do know that when I don't have to work I enjoy sleeping. I earnestly want to get up and be productive and get a good start to the day....but then my pillow and blanket feel the softest and I'm like, oh yea 15 more minutes, sure. And then I wake up 2 hours later feeling overtired. Great, just great.
I also wanted to write once a week! Didn't get that done. I always have cool/insightful/awesome ideas when I'm at work or at the store or driving, and I think, yes I shall write up a little diddy in my blog tonight when I get home. And then either I get caught up in the internet OR I do click on my new blog tab and my brain falls right out and takes a little nap. Thanks brain, good form there.
Suffice it to say, I am trying. I have also failed in the resolution department for January as a whole. Here;s to February and what it might bring.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
2014 Needs To Get It Together.
It is only the 7th and I am already hating this year. I haven't started anything from my resolution list and I made a poor choice during the first weekend, making my life right now suck.
Only good thing happening is that I have transferred back to my favorite store which is only 10 minutes from my house :)
Other than that, I am right pissed. I know that on one hand my poor choice is my fault and that I have to work on things internally. On my other hand I really thought 2014 would be an epic year. 2013 had too much bad vibe that I figured this year would be all goodness. I'm 28. 28 year olds should have a better plan. A better outlook. A better brain to tell them to cut the shit sometimes.
I don't even know. Hopefully by the 13th things will get better.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Only good thing happening is that I have transferred back to my favorite store which is only 10 minutes from my house :)
Other than that, I am right pissed. I know that on one hand my poor choice is my fault and that I have to work on things internally. On my other hand I really thought 2014 would be an epic year. 2013 had too much bad vibe that I figured this year would be all goodness. I'm 28. 28 year olds should have a better plan. A better outlook. A better brain to tell them to cut the shit sometimes.
I don't even know. Hopefully by the 13th things will get better.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Thursday, December 19, 2013
What a Crap Day
Seriously, Tuesday was tops but Wednesday can kick rocks.
Tuesday I went to work and it was a pretty normal day. I was looking forward to trivia because I hadn't been in a bit. Near the end of my shift, two girls came in and I recognized the one...turns out they were part of Miley Cyrus' twerk team, so pretty cool, plus they were super nice.
So then I get off work and go down to Pete & Shorty's which is basically "Cheers" IRL. Anyway, not only was the usually group there, but also my bro-in-law and a couple friends I haven't seen in a while. It was great and we all got properly drunk together.
Came home and had a good hang out with my man and his bro, passed out and thought of the upcoming days.
So insert a small hiccup: When I got home from the bar, I noticed that my battery light was on in my car. Thought to myself, alright, just pop over to Autozone before work and get this sorted out.
Nope.
So I go and they test things and the battery is fine and then the guy looks over at the other side of the car and bam, "Oh hey, figured out what happened...one of your belts shredded!" Oh cool, yea that's swell.
Bought a belt. Called off work. Felt sick.
OH and to top this, when I originally walked out to go to the store I looked at the side yard and realized..
That really, SOMEONE HAD COME UP IN MY YARD AND STOLE MY BIKE
WTF. Seriously, it didn't even have working tires. DUDE FUCK YOU.
Back to my belts.....my man said he'd fix it, so I wasn't worried. But to be honest I've done a number on my poor car and treated it like an old rubbish bin. Working on this car was a complete nightmare. First the belt didn't fit, got new belts, oops turns out the first one was right, great. Oi! Broke a bolt cause it had rusted so bad. Oh wait, I work at 8 in the am tomorrow, now we both have to get up in the dark dawn. Just fab, really.
Quick side note, not only did some wank steal my damn bike, but we have this mannequin out front tied to our palm tree. It was a halloween prop from two seasons ago, we kept it up, cause a) we're dark and weird and b) whose going to burgle a home with a bloody dummy kept up year round? Well I guess we were wrong in the latter because whomever stole my bike also stole the dummy's head.
I'm sorry what? Who are you coming into my yard? You've got some sort of message?! Got one for you: Stay off my property, you loser scum!
Yea so ok, woke up way early and my man graciously took me to work and in the midst of having his own work to go to, promised to fix up my poor rubbish car.
Fast forward to end of day and my best friend and sister picked me up and we got to have a nice catch up hang while waiting to see if my man could macguyver a way for my car to drive again. Spoiler alert: he did! Yay!
I still have to take it in, it sounds like a train when driving. I really need a new car, I didn't expect thinking about buying one at Christmas.
I haven't even gotten all my shopping done, I don't know what to make for dessert at my bro-in law's, I got a card from my parents and I wish I hadn't (that is a story for another day), and it just feels like this year was a blur and a half.
Blah.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
Tuesday I went to work and it was a pretty normal day. I was looking forward to trivia because I hadn't been in a bit. Near the end of my shift, two girls came in and I recognized the one...turns out they were part of Miley Cyrus' twerk team, so pretty cool, plus they were super nice.
So then I get off work and go down to Pete & Shorty's which is basically "Cheers" IRL. Anyway, not only was the usually group there, but also my bro-in-law and a couple friends I haven't seen in a while. It was great and we all got properly drunk together.
Came home and had a good hang out with my man and his bro, passed out and thought of the upcoming days.
So insert a small hiccup: When I got home from the bar, I noticed that my battery light was on in my car. Thought to myself, alright, just pop over to Autozone before work and get this sorted out.
Nope.
So I go and they test things and the battery is fine and then the guy looks over at the other side of the car and bam, "Oh hey, figured out what happened...one of your belts shredded!" Oh cool, yea that's swell.
Bought a belt. Called off work. Felt sick.
OH and to top this, when I originally walked out to go to the store I looked at the side yard and realized..
That really, SOMEONE HAD COME UP IN MY YARD AND STOLE MY BIKE
WTF. Seriously, it didn't even have working tires. DUDE FUCK YOU.
Back to my belts.....my man said he'd fix it, so I wasn't worried. But to be honest I've done a number on my poor car and treated it like an old rubbish bin. Working on this car was a complete nightmare. First the belt didn't fit, got new belts, oops turns out the first one was right, great. Oi! Broke a bolt cause it had rusted so bad. Oh wait, I work at 8 in the am tomorrow, now we both have to get up in the dark dawn. Just fab, really.
Quick side note, not only did some wank steal my damn bike, but we have this mannequin out front tied to our palm tree. It was a halloween prop from two seasons ago, we kept it up, cause a) we're dark and weird and b) whose going to burgle a home with a bloody dummy kept up year round? Well I guess we were wrong in the latter because whomever stole my bike also stole the dummy's head.
I'm sorry what? Who are you coming into my yard? You've got some sort of message?! Got one for you: Stay off my property, you loser scum!
Yea so ok, woke up way early and my man graciously took me to work and in the midst of having his own work to go to, promised to fix up my poor rubbish car.
Fast forward to end of day and my best friend and sister picked me up and we got to have a nice catch up hang while waiting to see if my man could macguyver a way for my car to drive again. Spoiler alert: he did! Yay!
I still have to take it in, it sounds like a train when driving. I really need a new car, I didn't expect thinking about buying one at Christmas.
I haven't even gotten all my shopping done, I don't know what to make for dessert at my bro-in law's, I got a card from my parents and I wish I hadn't (that is a story for another day), and it just feels like this year was a blur and a half.
Blah.
Keep on, keepin' on,
M.
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