March Madness

I'm not sure how to even state this properly or begin to talk about the insane things happening in our life. But I will say that at the root of it all, we have a wonderful friend family. Everyone who has been there, trust me it has meant more than you know.

I still live in shut down mode and though we had an awesome time with our friends who just visited, my head wasn't 100% in it. At the back of my mind there is always a "what's going to happen next??" "what will slap us in the face this time??" I can't function properly anymore. I have to drink, I have to plant, I have to do half assed crafts and redecorate my space when I should be writing or working or cleaning. I don't feel like a good adult/friend/partner. I feel like a hermit and a sad girl. And it's all stemming from someone who doesn't even live in this damn state. Who has ruined vacations and weekends and parties and doesn't even realize the pain they've caused. Nothing is fair anymore and I'm sick of it.

I sit in my house an squander away the hours of my life instead of being outside and seeing the world and the people that I love. I'm always in here waiting for the other shoe to drop. I hate it, and I'm sorry if you think I've just been being a bad friend, I haven't done it on purpose. I have to self preserve myself alone in here so that eventually when this is all over, I come out head held high and ready to be 100% happy.

Hope that's fucking soon though.

Keep on, keepin' on,

M.

When Did It Become February?

So my life has been a bit topsy-turvy as of late. February came in with a bang and a slap and a hell of an attitude. Things are happening that are 1000% out of my control and out of my man's control and only now a week and a half later we have reigned in this crazy. I won't delve into details because for now it's a grey area and I might make a more in depth article/blog when it's properly settled down. Today I just want to say....

To my friends/family:
I'm very thankful for all of you and I appreciate all the kindness and support. I'm sorry that I shut down and I revert back into my little cave of aloneness and I shut everyone out. It happens, it's a defensive trait. I'm reaching out my feelers though and I would like some company very soon :)

To _____:
I miss you and I love you. I'm sad that you are so far away. I'm sad that you can't visit. I'm sad for this whole situation. It's terrible for all parties and I feel that there is some much better solutions than the ones that we are faced with now. I hope you are happy, I guess. I hope you are doing well in school, you are smart as a whip and don't let anyone bring you down. You are a shining little firecracker, don't let anyone burn you out. I hope this finds you somewhere out there, know that you are loved and missed by more than me and whenever you want to come back, we're here with open arms.

That's all for now.

Keep on, keepin' on,

M.

Choose You Own Adventure

I've been both busy and not busy. Not busy, but busy playing tablet games. Busy having a wonderful time distracting myself from both my blog and the 60 day write club to write and illustrate a picture book for my 2 year old neighbor. But also busy with work. Flipside-busy having great chats with my neighbors and bonfires. I've come to the thinking that maybe there's two forms of busy on the life spectrum. You can choose how busy to be, and with what, I will always want to choose a good busy (so bonfires and drinks and building an empire of books)

Life in general is about choices, some are hard and some are easy but as far as it being a personal matter-it's always the right choice in the end. Hear me out: even when you make a so called wrong choice, you learn/recover from it, so thus it teaches you something, so it can't be that wrong. Obviously there are other situations where a choice is very clearly wrong and I would like to think that anyone reading this would never have to make a life or death choice.

Stay busy in the way you'd like, and make good for you kind of choices.

Keep on, keepin' on,
M.

It's 2016!

So without meaning to I took the entire month of December off from this blog. Sometimes life gets in the way of things whether good or bad and you put things on the back burner without a thought. I work in retail as well so it gets pretty hectic with hours and late nights and then there's all the get togethers after and all the christmas shopping you do for your families. Basically it's alot, but now its January and it is time to begin anew and get going on making 2016 a great one.

First: So much more home organization and making our spare room into an actual office for actual work. Both with my man's business and my own writing dreams.

Second: Writing dreams are going into FULL swing this year. My dear friend Candace has been a journalist for all our years of schooling and has multiple side projects. One of them, Life Between Weekends, proposed a challenge for this year, well for the next 2 months: Write the novel you've always wanted to-and do it in 2 months! Not like write it, edit it and publish it, but get those words and thoughts down on paper, so to speak. I love the idea and to have a small team to hold each other accountable seems like a really good fit for me. So here's to me writing the next great American novel!

Third: Have more adventures. Go more places. Really travel and have a reason to pin places on the map. Live my best life.

I'm turning 30 in 6 days. Why not go for it all this year?? Make 30 the best year and banish the old stereotypes!

Keep on, keepin' on,

M.

And Now, A Festive Song :)

A departure from my normal ramble, here now...and mostly because I just sang it in my head....And at Christmastime you want to remember the things that make you laugh, I give to you the:

12 Days of Skunkmas:

On the first day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me....a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the second day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me...two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

One the third day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me...three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the fourth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me...four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the fifth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the sixth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the seventh day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the eighth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me eight claws a-scratching, seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the ninth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me nine rounds of chasing, eight claws a-scratching, seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the tenth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me ten tries at begging, nine rounds of chasing, eight claws a-scratching, seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the eleventh day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me eleven shadows following, ten tries at begging, nine rounds of chasing, eight claws a-scratching, seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas tree.

On the twelfth day of Skunkmas my fur love gave to me twelve food bowls eaten, eleven shadows following, ten tries at begging, nine rounds of chasing, eight claws a-scratching, seven brakes a-rearing, six dens for hiding, five snuggle hours! Four nose kisses, three fast stomps, two playful nips and a tail like a Christmas treeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! 

Thanksgiving is Nearly Here!

The holidays are upon us friends! I am honestly looking forward to both Thanksgiving and Chirstmas this year. More than I have in the past few years and I'll tell you what: It's great :)

I've been in retail for going on 11 years now and as the holiday season has crept up faster and sooner, it zapped alot of the spirit out of me for many years. On top of some person drama during those years, I really gave up on good cheer, just putting on a nice front. This year things have come back to a bit of normalcy and drama has been squashed away, and even my store has gone companywide and given us a day completely off on Thanksgiving. The mall held out until November to put up their Christmas lights. I heard Santa isn't even showing up til after Black Friday!

Also, in moving over here to St. Pete, we have bonded with a wonderful block and now I have a pair of lovely ladies to craft Christmas bobbles and garlands with! We're so happy to get together and just enjoy each other's company. My parents had a neighborhood group when they lived in Chicago and they always talk of it with fond memories. To this day I'm pretty sure they still send each other Christmas cards....30 years later! This is the neighborhood we have found, this is where we'll stay :)

When I do crafting, trust that I shall put a few DIY blogs up!

Keep on, keepin' on,

M.

In Celebration of Friendship

In my life I have and have had good friends, great friends, best friends, acquaintances, bad friends, ghost friends and toxic friends. All these people made a mark on my life in some way, at some point and shaped me to the woman you know/read about on this blog.

I have found that in troubled times and wonderful times you never expect all the outpouring of love and support you will recieve.

And because it has been a difficult couple months and now because we are on the upswing of our lives, I just want to say thanks.

Thanks to our friends who we love and love us back. I'm happy we are in each other's lives.

Keep on, keepin' on,

M.